Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Continuously, over the past 3 year I have gotten nothing but positive feedback from when I post. While most of it is from my parent’s friends with kids the same age or younger than me that seem to enjoy these posts. It is something that I have loved doing but still have yet to make a habit of. I have posted on and off throughout the years, but never enough to gain a following or to the point that I am happy with. Typically, when things are going really well in my life and I have the time to sit down and write, I do it. But, it is definitely safe to say, I felt at times as if I had no time this past year to write. So, in an attempt to start this up again. Here is an update on me this past year.

 

My New Tagline- If anyone remembers before, my tagline was “Just About Anything You Can Imagine.” I initially really like it. But I started to realize that it didn’t mean a whole lot to me. It was just something that I thought of and sounded good enough to me. My new tagline is my life motto/saying that has within the past two months meant the world to me – “Fearfully and Wonderfully Made.” This is something that I believe with me full heart. I truly believe that every single person has been Fearfully and Wonderfully Made by God and discovering that and coming to fully believe it has altered how I feel about myself and my outlook on life over this summer.

 

My New Look- Now, nothing has changed about my physical appearance. But it has for this blog. I think that I have changed and matured so much from my last post, which was right after recruitment ended last year- so almost exactly a year ago. That is why I have completely changed the look of my blog. It’s something that I have been working on for the past week, and am continuing to make some small touches on for the next couple of days. I’m not exactly tech savvy… One year can change a lot about a person, so I wanted that to change this blog too.

 

About Me- For all of the people reading this that are getting ready to go into their Freshman year of college… College is so hard but is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think that college is why I have had such a difficult time sitting down and starting to blog again. It totally is a shock to your emotions and thoughts for the first time in your life that you’re not living at home. It was very difficult for me to adjust first semester.

 

I got to college and was writing for the Odyssey. For anyone that kept up with me, you got to read some of my stuff through the Odyssey and I absolutely loved it. But, my heart just wasn’t in it. It was just a fad. I was required to put out new content every single week with a three strike policy. I am just not that kind of person. I like to post when something is put on my heart to write about. My most successful article on the Odyssey got over 5,000 shares. Which, for me, was so incredible and something that was such an accomplishment. But that certain article took me five minutes to write and absolutely no effort because I just typed something up and send it off just to make the cut off time to scrape by another week. And that is absolutely not how I tackle life. I can’t just put in 2% of the effort and hope that amazing praise and effort comes out of it. So, there went the Odyssey.

 

I got really involved at TCU this year with different organizations and it was a bunch of trial and error to find out where I belonged and what I was most passionate about. I joined a sorority, which has still been one of the best decisions in my life. I tried a bunch of different clubs, got really plugged in on campus, and joined many different religious groups. Many of those things didn’t work out. Turns out, TCU is a campus full of people that want to get involved…very involved and there were many organizations that I just didn’t end up making the cut for. That one was very hard and truthfully a gut punch. Something that I wasn’t used to was not getting into an organization, especially when it was based on academics and social skills. But, that is something that I tackled on my own and got plugged into one super awesome program on campus that I am extremely happy with.

 

The religious groups. That one was hard for me. Something that has always come easy to me was my faith. It came easy because I was raised to believe with my whole heart. From the day I was born I started going to church. For the past 11 summers, Camp Ozark- a Christian camp in Mt. Ida, AR has been apart of my life. There wasn’t a single time in my life since I remember where I haven’t believed. I thought that would be the easiest part for me, but it was actually very hard. The misconception with TCU is that it is very Christian focused. Surprisingly, that is not true. You’re required one 3-hour religion credit, and it doesn’t have to be Christianity. However, it did mean that there was an awesome Christian community present, which was a life saver for me. I plugged into KLIFE, but that didn’t work for me. I tried to get plugged into Young Life, but I jumped on that too late and just couldn’t get trained or placed in time. I became very lost in that and felt like I wasn’t serving a purpose. But once again, I figured that out.

 

My sorority was the best thing that happened to me freshman year. I joined Kappa Alpha Theta and to this day, couldn’t be happier about it. There has truthfully never been a place in my entire life where I just felt like I fit in and belonged to like I do in my sorority. I knew from the day that I walked into that house that it was where I was supposed to end up, and that is exactly what happened. I didn’t make friends right away. In fact, first semester was very lonely for me and I could not find a group to fit in with. I thought walking into an organization/sisterhood with 200 girls was going to be a walk in the park and there would be someone to hangout with every weekend, someone available for lunch every single day… but that was NOT the case. It’s funny because after a while, everyone started realizing that everyone really felt that way at times. After a long semester break I was ready to go make friends and just put myself out there. I had a complete change of heart and was asking girls to do stuff all the time. I stopped waiting for people to ask and hangout with me and started seeking out friendships. As of today, I have about 10 of the best friends in the entire world. Those girls mean the absolute world to me. I truly believe that I have made friends in this last year that will for sure be in my wedding. I couldn’t image a life without those girls in it.

 

To Those Girls- …and you know exactly who you are. Thank you. Thank you for hanging out with me. That you for loving me, challenging me, crying with me, laughing with me, and most of all thank you for all of the memories. I couldn’t be more excited for the next 3 years and life time that we all have together. I have never been closer or felt more loved by a group of girls. I never thought in my life that I would be in a huge friend group. Thank you! You made college so worth it.

 

Overall, college was truly the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. I walked away so much stronger, smarter, mature, and with possibly the greatest friendships that I have ever had in my life. I could not be happier with how my first year at college turned out for me. It was a blast. I am obviously very biased, but I truthfully believed that I chose the best college to go to. It has never disappointed me and I fully believe that I am going to be set up to succeed because of TCU. My heart is so happy when I think of the last year that I had. Many of those lessons and stories I intend to explain and dive into later this week. But for right now, just know- this past year has been incredible.

 

Camp Ozark- For those of you who not only know me…but REALLY know me. You know that Camp Ozark has been probably the most important thing in my life. If you haven’t heard of it… check it out here. I started going 11 years ago, and I was a 9-year camper. There was one year where I could’ve been an LIT, which is a Leader in Training. But I didn’t have time the summer before college to go and do that. That summer, without going to camp was very weird for me. I wasn’t used to not being at camp and I hated it. Therefore, what was my solution? Be a counselor. I was home for one week after college and then turned around and went to Camp Ozark to serve as a counselor and was gone for 8 weeks. Safe to say, my parents were not thoroughly excited that their oldest, (and favorite) child decided to leave for 8 weeks with limited cell phone use. But those two months literally changed my life. So much happened in those two months and it was nothing but joyful. For the first time in my life, I found something I was truly passionate about. I was able to share Christ with kids, I grew in my relationship with Christ, became even closer to my best friend in the entire world, and for the first time in my entire life, I truly believed that I started experiencing raw and genuine joy.

 

To sum this long but much needed post up. This past year has been wonderful. There were many things that didn’t go my way and many situations that I was frustrated, fed up with, and sad about. But everything turned out the way it did for a reason and I grew more than I ever expected. The plan from here is to post. I don’t know when or how often. But hopefully way more than I have been doing. It’s just good to finally be at a place in my life where I feel that I can slow down, relax, and really process what’s going on in my life and live in the moment. I truthfully can’t wait to share why I believe I am Fearfully and Wonderfully Made and how that has impacted me and where it will take me in this life time.

 

-Chloe

2 thoughts on “Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

  1. You are the greatest (no I am not prejudiced) I know how you were raised and how you tackle life’s ups and downs will keep following you

    Love you
    Mammy

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  2. Chloe
    This was wonderful to read. I’m grace Goodwins grandmother. You have a great perspective on life. God must look at you and think. ” this is a woman after My heart. “. I pray continued blessing on you as you find Gods plan for your life

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